From there, I found a page for the church I attended for a time many years ago. I’m not Russian, it’s a story for another time, but I attended and sang in the choir. The new priest there has a blog, and I’m certain that if I still lived in Pittsburgh I would seek him out as a spiritual guide. His blog is brilliant. As I’ve read I’ve found myself agreeing over and over with him and learning new and fascinating things.

I’m very wary of following people. However, if I could find a person like this to talk to it would go a long way to restoring some sanity for me.

Actually, I guess I have an ongoing reaction to what I perceive as the sterility and western rationalism of the Protestant movement. This is an interesting problem to have when you’re as deep into apologetics and reason as I am. I used to revile C.S. Lewis as a sterile rationalist who sought to remove the mystery from the faith.

Then I read him. Funny, how so much has been written and discussed about what he actually believed, in terms of the Protestant/Catholic axis. I find myself drawn to Orthodoxy and it’s powerful spiritual tradition, I have some history there and I still maintain that Orthodox Liturgical music is as close as we will get on Earth to hearing choirs of Angels. I still have some serious issues with Roman Catholic doctrine. I attend an Evangelical Protestant church with roots directly in the great revivals of the last two centuries. I’m reading the Philokalia.